Looking on

This staying sober is tough. I am nine weeks dry and today it feels so hard.

I think I have been overdoing it. About 10 days ago I wrote about how pleased I was to be able to offer something back to the sober community without whom I would not have made it this far. Today I feel drained.

I have been trying to support two other ladies struggling towards sobriety – one online and the other in real life. I think I have got too emotionally involved. It is all a bit too close for comfort. A few short weeks ago I was where they are now and I don’t want to go back. I can’t go back.

I feel selfish but I know I need to take a step back and take care of me but I so want to help. I am sad, frustrated, scared and sometimes in despair.

If I was talking to a friend feeling this way I would tell them to take care of themselves first and foremost. Ultimately it is not my responsibility to help those ladies get sober. But it’s hard standing by, looking on.

 

2 thoughts on “Looking on

  1. I hear you. Sometimes I have to step back. Struggle can be infectious. You do what is best for you. Your positive, helpful energy will return.

  2. Thanks for commenting on my blog. You do really help me. I know it must look as though I’m not moving forward, but I am, and you have helped me to do that. Annie x

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