The past few nights my sleep has gone out the window. Improved sleep is one of the most important things I have noticed since I stopped drinking. Now I look forward to going to sleep and I look forward to waking up. I no longer have the 3am sweats when I would wake feeling fuzzy and dry mouthed, unsure of quite how the previous evening had ended. Then I would remain awake for at least an hour becoming more and more anxious about not being able to go back to sleep. What sleep I did get was disturbed and I was troubled by vivid, unpleasant dreams.
Recently, I have been finding it hard to wind down at night. I know I have been spending too long reading and commenting on sober blogs. I also have a lot going on at work and at home and my brain feels as if it is working overtime. Alcohol used to take the edge off that. As I have written before, I get a buzz out of knowing that my brain is sharper but sometimes it is exhausting. I just need my thoughts to slow down.
I am not especially stressed. I am not worrying. I just can’t wind down.
I am not sure what to do about this. I am still sleeping better than when I was drinking – I really don’t know how I went on like that for so long. Perhaps I need to go with it for now and hope it will pass….