Today I have been sober for 200 days. This feels more solid than 100 days. I didn’t really have any expectations of what today would feel like whereas 100 days was huge in my mind.
When it turned out to be just another day, the anti climax and disappointment was hard.
Apart from Mr So, only one friend and my therapist know that today is a milestone. When I was drinking it was a huge secret which I carried around with me all mixed up with guilt, shame and fear. I am finding it hard that just as I kept my drinking secret, now I am having do the same with my sobriety. I can’t share my alcoholism so I can’t share my sobriety. I suppose this is where my group comes in.
But 200 days feels good. Xx