I feel miserable today:
- My children treat me like a skivvy and its my fault because I have mollycoddled them for years
- No one even says I look nice – I make an effort. I have had my hair cut and coloured. I am wearing new boots but no one has noticed or if they have, they think I look horrible.
- I cannot shift this bug.
- My eating is crap and I can’t control it. I wish it was an option to treat it the same way as alcohol and just stop eating but that not an option.
- I have started skin picking again – this has always been something I have done since I was a child. It’s gross. It’s not visible so it’s not the reason why people don’t think I look nice. But it makes me feel horrible and ashamed.
I can feel my mood plummeting and it’s overwhelming. Why is all this happening now ? Why is there no stability?