Just that really. I feel an overwhelming need to talk. And talk and talk and talk some more. I have tried to address this by finding a group to attend – the group is great but I can’t exactly sit there and talk about myself. Also it’s supposed to be a social thing rather than group counselling.
I have spoken to my drugs and alcohol worker but while she is kind and supportive she can’t really give me what I need. What I think I need. I have texted my therapist but I sense he is very busy. I have an appointment with him but that’s not until December. Also I pay privately to see him and I don’t feel I can see him more than every 4-6 weeks, even if he could fit me in.
I did have two appointments with a psychiatrist to sort out my meds but she discharged me.
I could see my GP but she doesn’t really seem to get it. I’ve stopped drinking so I must be OK, right ? My friends are the same and anyway what can they do ?
It did cross my mind that if I started drinking again that might elicit a response but I am not going to do that.
I post here and on a Dry board but sometimes that makes it almost worse because it shows me that support is tantalising close but just out of reach.
Also I don’t now how much of how I am feeling now is to do with my drinking and how much is down to my underlying mental health issues. Can stopping drinking and thinking about how awful it, lead to a low level kind of PTSD ? was It could be the time of year. It could be hormones. I feel well and truly stuck.