The therapist I have been seeing for 10 years or so (not constantly but on and off) can’t see me any more. His practice is moving in a different direction and he isn’t seeing individuals any more. I know that this is reasonable because he can’t provide me with the support I need and of course, I am pleased his business is successful but still I feel a sense of abandonment. This is even more so because my psychiatrist won’t see me again unless I get re referred and the group I found isn’t really working out. Sometimes there are only 2 or 3 of us and there are also people who are pursuing moderation rather than abstinence and I find that triggery.
So I have had to find a new therapist. I spent several days searching on the internet, checking qualification and professional memberships and making calls. Each time I had to explain a bit about my journey so far and what I am hoping to achieve through therapy. It is draining.
But I have found someone new and I have an appointment with her this week. I am trying to look at this as a new start, a blank piece of paper upon which I can write anything I want.