Self Preservation

I was supposed to be meeting a friend for coffee this weekend. She got sober just a while after me. When we were arranging the meeting, by text, I asked her casually how everything was going – what I meant of course was “are you still sober ?” I waited for her response and within a couple of minutes up it popped “Made the decision to drink on a night out when I was feeling really down – can see how easy it is to get back into old habits (once you let it in!) but thankfully I’m not drinking regularly.”

After thinking really hard I have cancelled coffee. I have lied about why I can’t make it. Part of me feels really bad. I feel as if I am being judgemental but at the end of the day I have to go with my gut. It’s a case of self preservation.

5 thoughts on “Self Preservation

  1. I think it is important to protect yourself. If your friend drinking again makes you feel triggery it is a good idea to wait and not meet her just yet. Its easy to have thoughts of ‘oh if she can drink maybe so can i’ If that happens, remind yourself of the reality. The inevitable slippery slope of alcoholism. Remember she will probably be very envious of you still being sober. Xxx

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