I have had a crappy few days. The bit between Christmas and New Year was really tough. The most overwhelming feeling was boredom. It was like when I was a kid in the 1970s and everything stopped on Sundays. Except this time I couldn’t constantly complain “I’m bored” and huff and puff and flop around. Well I did do quite a lot of sighing and banging random items around – noisily unloading the dishwasher provided some relief !

It is the closest I have come to drinking for a very long time. Not worryingly close, but it did cross my mind. More than once. I suppose all the upset the next day and beyond would have offered plenty to think about. In a perverse way it would have brought some excitement back into my life. But I knew in my heart it wasn’t worth it. Given a choice between boredom and the crippling shame of relapse, I decided being bored was bearable.

So I plodded on.

Then a couple of days ago my daughter was starting a jigsaw she was given for Christmas. We’re not really a jigsaw kind of family and Mr So in particular was unimpressed at the prospect of having a half finished 1000 piece jigsaw lying around for an indeterminate amount of time. I offered to help and before long all 4 of us were diligently piecing the puzzle together. Teamwork !

We finished it yesterday and I went and bought a replacement.

It is amazing how quickly the time passes when puzzling. Even though I think it’s a bit of a nerdy thing to do, I like it because it keeps my brain ticking over and also keeps my restless hands busy. It probably would have been quite a good thing to do as a distraction in early sobriety but at that stage I was struggling and my brain was hardly functioning. Nine months sober I have found I am quite a whizz at doing jigsaws – who’d have thought it !!


6 thoughts on “Puzzling

  1. What a GREAT idea. I like jigsaws, for exactly the reasons you give; although I agree with your husband about them sitting out for a long time … you have insipred me. Hope you are feeling a bit better today … xx

    1. Thank you Lily. I still feel it’s a bitof a naff thing to be into although I wouldn’t think that about someone else. There are of course all kinds of jigsaw accessories you can get to store them away while you’re working on them – it’s a whole new world !! Hugs xxx

  2. Sorry to hear about your tough times, but glad they are looking up. Mr. S and I used to do quite bit of puzzling and your post reminded me of how nice it was. The quiet concentration to complete something great. Really enjoy the blog. Happy 2017!

    1. Happy 2017 to you too. Thanks for your kind comments. I think it was you I heard on Radio 5 last week. I haven’t listened to it all yet but it sounded good. Xxx

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