Day 395

This week has been the hardest I can remember for a very long time. I have had enough at work – the situation with the liar is still rumbling on and my ineffectual team leader is driving me mad with her inane comments. I am very close to snapping and losing my rag. There have been tears.

My running which I was really enjoying, is on hold because I am experiencing some bad thigh pain. This is making me feel frustrated and out of control. Tomorrow I will try a gentle session on the treadmill to see how it is.

Eating is not good – too many carbs.

For the first time in ages, on Thursday, I really wanted wine. I was feeling fat, frustrated, bored and deprived. Yesterday I was working from home which in the past had been an opportunity for day time drinking. It was triggery and I didn’t like it.

Today is a bit better.  My sobriety counter tells me this is Day 395. When I imagined how I would feel if I made it this far, I didn’t imagine it would be like this.

Xx

 

6 thoughts on “Day 395

  1. Hi Tori!
    When I have a bad day or couple of days, I tell myself things will change.
    It helps me to realize I won’t be stuck here forever.
    I tend to think in “all or nothing” terms.
    I wish you a peaceful day.
    xo
    Wendy

  2. Workplace stuff like that is so annoying, grinding away at us day in day out. I also have to deal with some ‘interesting’ personality dynamics where I work, I know how it sucks. I hope you’re feeling a lot better by now. Take care 🙂 x

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